Most Doctors offices a many Businesses use these "Automated" call back services....
So now we are up for the rest of the Day.... Great now I have ALL Day to be "miserable"....
Today is the day of the month that Stacey gets his "Disability" .... I cannot touch a penny of it though... due to someone stole my ID 15 years ago ... they screwed up things fo me and I am Not even allowed a Savings Account with a bank... So ONLY My Sister can withdraw from that account.... I have to be at the Heart and Lung doctor this afternoon.... so My Sister will ( or "would") have came by today , this afternoon... So we will have to wait until another day to get some food-stuffs and I have only one cigarette...
... the "quality" of the message service "sucks".....so my Step-mother (My only way to the doctor) calls me at 7:00 am and so Now we will have to be awake while we go all day without cigarettes or Food... ...just Great.... their "appointment reminder service" did not leave a "clear" message... she thought that it said 8:30..... They Do Not even open until 9:00....
So (as happens way too often)... we have started the morning off badly...We have No money to even try walking uptown so I could have a biscuit...
Sorry folks just been way too many "bad things" on my mind for a while now... to the point of making me physically ill....
things might not be so bad if only it were not so "chilly" in here...can no longer afford to keep warm... So have again sealed off this one room from the rest of the house to try and stay a bit warm....
... Just so very many things ( many of which most people take for granted...) ...like the ability to "breath".... So Stacey is dying and we dwell in poverty... ( I know that there are many people in this world who have things much worse than me...)
Speaking "bluntly" ... we would rather go ahead a die , than to continue to live in misery.... never "happy" anymore...best that we can "hope" for is a lesser degree of "misery".... from time to time we may actually be a bit "cheerful" (though those times are few and far between)... these days it is much harder to "act' the least bit cheerful anyway... Even live (stuck here till I die) in a small town where most folks do not like me... we have few "Friends"... and see much less of them these days .... so "alone and miserable" , seldom have much food either... (another aspect of my existence that really gets to me).... So we put on a (faked) "Happy Face" and take on another day....
Now having my first cup of coffee for the day... as we prepare for another long miserable day in Marshville.... have a few slices of stale bread ... so can at least have a peanut butter sandwich later....
Sorry for the "Rant"... we have just been "thinking" Too Much...
I just cussed out the Neighbor....
My Step-mother even drove all the way down here to apologize ....
ReplyDeleteso we have to stay up for the entire day due to the poor quality of the doctors office "appointment reminder" being of such poor quality....
I really hate talking to a "Machine" over the phone....