So for Now, .... just here....
Went to sleep very depressed.... and woke up in a "foul mood"....
We Finally figured out "how" to deal with Life's many "miseries"......
..... Just Stop "caring"..... Just feel hollow and empty inside ...
Just "turn off" your emotions.... realize that life is "suffering" and the only way out for most of us is Death.... Lately wishing our death would come before very long.... if you're Dead, then there is No "suffering"....
Sorry for the unpleasant thoughts.... its Christmas... we should all be more "cheerful" ( even if it is only an act)...
ReplyDelete... we were thinking back to my Mom's last Christmas with us... the (Alice Cooper) Guillotine ... a plastic working model of one ( had wanted one since early childhood ... having seen one of the Aurora Kits as a small child....... Sadly we no longer have this item... a few years ago (one of the times that my "dear Brother" went off at me .... he grabbed me by the neck and shoulder and used my face to smash it and a few other of my things atop a bookcase.... )
... so our thought are not so "pleasant" at present.... we are very greatful for the things that I do have... ( can no longer afford to buy anything for my collection... and never get to go anywhere to but something if I had the money)... the only time we get to leave this "Hell-Hole" of a town is for doctor's appointments... so literally just "stuck here".... all this and our depression is worse as well.... so we will put on a fake "Smile" when dealing with others... glad that this Holiday has but a week remaining.....
.... Try to count your "blessings" and be thankful for what you have this Holiday.... and remember to try and make Christmas a merry one for the sake of the children.... their smiles can warm even the coldest of hearts...
... so even if you are having a "Crappy" Holiday , don't let your true feelings show through,.... for the sake of those you love.... just do like us and " put on a Happy Face".....
Just remember, you do have friends and people who care about you. Even though it might not seem like it at times.
ReplyDeleteThank you Mr. Bloch.... we are "Manic Depressive" ( among other Mental issues)...
ReplyDeleteMake it rather difficult to see anything "pleasant" when all is "crappy" around you....
Even the people of this town have been treating Stacey more "rudely" than usual....
Do Not Know what is the newest terrible thing(s) that the "rumor mill" is saying about me ....Thus, their reasons for being "rude"....
Thank you , my Friend for your kind words of support....