Tuesday, March 3, 2015

Sorry Folks... Breathing Issues....


Coughing Fit lasted nearly 15 minutes ... we could not even stand up (fell twice trying)
... Finally made it to my inhalers.... and took a few to remember where we placed the "thing" (for puncturing a small capsule  for me to inhale the contents)....

                                   Breathing in "gulps" and can now drink some water...
Yes this happens (not always a bad .... and sometimes even worse) about every day when we wake....
this are the parts of the galaxy that theses "Creeping Terror" own...
The Forlorn Creeping Terror... My main "Empire" for now....

                                     Played non-stop Spore till almost 9:00am ...
                  The "terrified creatures" behind my "Monster" are my newest "Humans"....
                     Brain just now starting to "work".. (just a bit over 3 hours of sleep...)
Can finally breath some-what normally for now... should now be able to stand long enough to make a pot of coffee...
                              Dying "Sucks", Kiddies.... still things could always be worse....

Monday, March 2, 2015

Was Just Hanging Out with My Sims.....

                                        Better than just sitting and thinking....

                                                 Something to do for a bit.....
                                            Even had them go out and "socialize"...

Good Afternoon...


                                                        Hope that you all are well...

                                                     Just having a bit more Coffee....
                                                    And doing a bit more "thinking"....
So just been playing a bit of Sims and Spore.... not much ... they just don't work right now at keeping thoughts at bay....
                            "You eventually Become, That which you think about all day long".....

We Have Been "Thinking"....


                          We have reviewed many "possibilities" and their "outcomes".....
                                         But... We All have to "face Reality"...
Though most "ideas" end in my demise... at least we have some "options"....
My friend was right, signs of my illness have become very "noticeable' to others....
Even More of a reason Not to go around people.... and the uncontrollable coughing "fits"...
or should we have a "panic Attack"... Are my bad nerves very noticeable today....
Not for the sake of "vanity" .. my appearance matters very little to me... (a bit more weight would be nice)... ( a fact that we can conceal with more layers of clothing...)
             Doubt that we will ever be leaving this house very often ever again...

These boxes (and the items stacked atop of them ... are a sizable part of my collection (mostly my Toys) yes we need to sort through All of this "mess" as well...
 Its not that bad of a "Prison" ... at least we have the things that I have spent my life collecting...
...and warmer weather will come along soon... so we will not be so cold in here...


Sunday, March 1, 2015

Hello Again....


                                               ... been off at a bit of my Sims...
Only have two designs of "Space Ship" ("Housing Lots")

           and ended up playing the "Sci-Fi" aspects of my worlds ("Neighborhoods")....
                                         Hell of a "Warp Drive" on my ship.....

A Few Hours (Almost 3 Hours) of Sleep....


                                              ...Took us a while on this post....

                      
Do Not Know what to do about my "so-Called" "Friend"... seem her only "Friend comes in a Bottle....

                       If we did Not care about her as a "Friend" ... we could care less for her "well being"....
.... My "Friend" with the the Alcohol Problem.... took "Offense" when trying to tell her that her increased Daily consumption was taking a toll on her "physical" appearance....  ... She took "Deep Offense" ..
... As soon as her boyfriend left the room... (her posture altered... raised her shoulders and lowered her head .. ( things she does when "mad") and in her mumbling-"pissed-off" voice told me how My "appearance" had changed for the worse.... I told . Yes, we know ... Comes with my terminal illness....
                  
.... She will have to use "Sharper Barbs" than That to "wound" Stacey....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
She "intentionally" tried to Hurt Me on a "deep Emotional" level..... do not know whether th "Laugh" at her pathetic attempt ... or feel "Really Offended".....
..... Takes more than a few words about my "appearance" "Not what it was"... ( due in a very large part to my illness) ... yes we see just How poorly we look these days ... watching the progression , just over less than a year ... we seldom even look in the mirror anymore for that reason....
                            ... Yes Her "hurtful Statement" should have "effected us ....
           But she just told me "what" I have been looking in the mirror at over the months....

Been Off at Spore Since Last Post....


                                           the air in here is quite "chilly"...

                                    And I need to let Casper in the house....